Wonders of Pain
I think I’ve finally gotten a taste of how it feels like to be in your position. After a whole year of confusion, the tables have turned and now I’m the one who’s heart is in a complete mess. You shattered me into tiny little fragments and I’ve been trying my best to piece myself back together. My feelings are scattered everywhere and in the midst of all this mess, I still have no idea where to put all the love I was so willing to give you.
To this day, I still wonder if you actually realise how badly you hurt me. We don’t talk anymore so I have no clue if you do or not. I’m not even sure if you’ve learnt a single thing from your mistakes; but I know ‘I’ sure have learnt a thing or two.
I’ve learnt to avoid causing any pain towards the ones that I decide to let in while I try to figure out myself all over again, the person I was before I met you. And I’ve also learnt to never act on how I feel unless I know that am in a complete certain that the choices I make won’t lead to any consequences that will negatively affect myself or anyone else.
You ruined me and for that, I thank you. Thank you for teaching me how to be cautious; not only with my own heart but with the hearts of all the people I will open up to as well.
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