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Tuesday, 16 September 2014

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Uttering the Speechless

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I don’t know, I think there’s something to be said about the person that still gives you butterflies after days, months, years. That the way he look at you, every damn stare, makes you believe that, in that moment, anything is possible.

The way that, with you, a touch is never just a touch. His fingertips make your body feel like it’s on fire, lighting up parts of you that have never been brought to life before. His voice gives you that warm, fuzzy feeling inside and the way his arms wrap around you to say “I’m here and I’m not going anywhere” and “I love the deep affection you have towards me".

There’s something to be said about the affection that makes others desire it, envy it. The way that waking up is so easy, knowing someone adore you. The way he makes the future excites you, rather than terrifying yourself. It’s this love that changes your life.

Wednesday, 28 May 2014

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Hope, Strength & Will

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Just that one person.

Only that one person who could give you the motivation to move forward without her realizing it. Such an impact to a person who needs the dire need to leave the dark damp cave that has been finally seeing the light at the end of the tunnel; only an angel could do that.

Differences in a lineage; definitely; but it is the bond that never break loose wrapping warmly for the person who have given out to dance their fingers on the alphabets and numerical. Both of her beauty and intellectuality defines to whom an inspiration arose; seeing through her eyes will make a person’s day feel like their last; as such overwhelm feelings are never being the same with another person.

Her sultry voice, her gaze when you caught her looking at you, her cherry lips smiles as you make her laugh and the deep connection between both hearts that just could not being define by words; from that moment, you know in definite that this is the person whom you never want to loose hope for, that you would never leave despite anything and that someone whom you know is worth to fight for.

A special day to her is an annual celebration for you, her laugh being the fireworks and her gratitude to your effort is a million of stars fall to your heart; that sensation of being part of her; one could not define.

Monday, 19 August 2013

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The Window

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Looking outside, there are a lot of things that attracts you to be there; the sun bright, the birds chirping, the kids laughing running playing tag and there you are, choosing to be in your room rather exploring the possiblities of the day that could provide your mind and soul a thought for the day.

Not knowing the outcome and feel the uncertainty upon how it will affect you causing yourself to be reserve, choose to be alone rather to mingle and letting go for all the good things that might happen today. Negative thoughts lingering in your mind about you and your self conscious.

Let it be. It is people whom we are talking about. Let them see the scars on your legs, your messy untidy hair, the dark circles under your eyes and the way upon how you express your thoughts. Let it out. Do not hide every single one of it because people were are attracted to imperfections. That is what make them to keep on talking about you.

Friday, 12 July 2013

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White Dove

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Some people would tell me that I would never love again. Some people tell me that I would never believe again. Some people tell me that I could not smile again and some people tell me that I could not put up hope again.

But it has changed when I met you; a blissful, exciting and lovely young woman who seeks nothing but a partner to devote to, for spending time with and most importantly, seeking for the one who will be your last.

Text and calls that waiting to die have been given a second life from the day I met you. Each morning on each day I would want to be the first one to wish you early in the morning and the last one to wish you at the very late of night.

Distance might be an issue but with me, distance choose to stay out between us. Time seems to ticking fast as it wants us to meet eye to eye and smiling to each other like how we met for the first time. Memories unfold on each occasion that I spend that one particular time just talking about ourselves and not about others.

There would be one day that both of us spending the entire time together; travelling to a place and discover new places and taking pictures together would be the highlight of our future; a future that will begin right after we utter these words, “I do”.

Thursday, 4 July 2013

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Clear Heart

White Dance

In the night of the drizzling rain, I look outside of the window and imagine that you are out there in my front yard; waiting for me to come out as you need my warm tight hug to be your fire. As you shaking tremendously in my arms; putting out those cold away; my hand plays blissfully through your hair with drips of water running between my fingers.

Suddenly, I felt fickle of warmth on my chest and I sensate the tears could not help you to hide the sudden silent burst. As I stare deeply into your eyes, I asked “Is there something wrong?”

You just shook your head as you lean more to my chest. Something must be. There must be. The person whom I want to be with suddenly appeared in front of me; you were choking with words; things that you want to utter but something hold you back.

“Something that you want to tell me?” I asked again. You nodded weakly.

“I love you. I love you so much till my heart could not bear it anymore. I know I made you waited but the reason I did it is to make an assurance to myself that you are really serious about me, about us, about you…and me. And it suddenly gets me; when my heart whispered to me that your sincerity could be felt by it, the love it could taste and passion that touched it. My heart want you to have it. My heart belongs to you. My heart is yours. My heart is own….by you”.

I was struck by what the person whom I care about says. The heart; that one heart that is precious to me is now mine. No words. No voice. No nothing. As I kissed your forehead, I promised to myself that I would take care of it; taking care of you.

I knew there is a reason upon why you made me wait; perhaps it is not from me, perhaps it is not from you, perhaps it is from me, perhaps it is from you or perhaps it is from both of us; but the assurance is there and from day one I could feel it.

All I need to do is only staring outside the windows when the rain shower the earth when it happens.

Saturday, 11 May 2013

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Connection

Connection

When we first met, you were with your friends walking and running along the beach. I asked myself “Who is she?”. Your laugh, your smile and the way you turn around looking at people drawn me in.

I notice there was dust of sand on your left cheek and I went straight to you; and brushed the sand off. Both of us smiled and in that moment, our mind and thoughts were interconnected.

Distance tends to make us fragile and it is depend to our passion alongside with determination to keep the relationship alive. Both of us knew that we are meant for each other, meant to be together and seeking for a marriage to seal our promises.

Thursday, 28 February 2013

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February End Wishes

Wishes

“At the time you go along, you will find poisoned roses. You can never determine any of those unless you churn the petals. Good luck.” as the November Scorpenette telling to the person who she might leave in a moment.

These words might not be utter at the present as it is meant to be preserve for the future; the reason she might not say it on the first place. Perhaps she will spill it in the next few months time but as for now, it is meant to be keep behind the beautiful lips of hers.

A risk being taken as what her own words telling the story by its own. She took the leap of faith and putting a huge risk not just to herself but also to people around her. She is definitely in uncertainty and the steps she took might hurt the person whom she respect, care and love.

As she hold Gemini’s hands, she told Gemini that she might not return because once she made the leap, there is no such thing as turning back. Gemini knew that she want to leave because her uncertainty must be solve and November Scorpenette will not found the answer if she is still with Gemini.

Letting go is the most hurtful part as two pair of hands is apart so she could run to her uncertainty which for her could answer her questions. Deep down in her heart; she whispered that if the uncertainty does fails her; she would keep on looking forward; no turning back; and hoping Gemini would wait for her in the finishing line.

Never she knew Gemini could hear her heart whispered. Hence, he is now there…at the finishing line; patiently waiting and look up upon the horizon seeking November Scorpenette at perspective point ready to hug her tight and blissful kisses.

Wednesday, 28 November 2012

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Magic Dust

Magic Dust

Dear magic dust,

I still remember first time I met him in a place I know so well. From afar, I was laying my eyes upon the person who possessed a beautiful smile alongside with cute dimple on each cheek. I poised myself, trying to be around him while collecting the courage to speak up, even to say “Hi”, it would be enough. But you gave more than that.

There were you on his hair; perhaps reciting the love chants. When I noticed, I came up to him and brushed his hair subconsciously. When I realized of my action, my heartbeat became fast and there he is smiling and while extending his hand to me, he said “Thank you, miss …..?”. And our magic moment began.

Dear magic dust,

Thank you for inspired him to wrote sweet messages, letters and cards. Initially, I was hesitated upon how he would bring this relationship to another level and there you are again made him to rubbed his eyes because “There is dust in my eyes”. I softly blew his eyes and when we found ourselves looking directly into each other’s eyes, he proposed. I was once again feel blessed.

Dear magic dust,

It seems like he is far from my reach. Something about him change. Please, I beg you…bring him back to me. I miss talking to him for hours in the phone, texting him endlessly and cuddling while feel his warmth around me. I love him so much. Without him, there would not be the left of me no more.

Dear magic dust,

He is everything to me. He is my air. He is my sight. He is my soul. He is my life. For me, he is the one; whom I want to devote my life to and to whom I want to called as my partner for life. Let death make us apart and let marriage be our unbreakable bond.

The vow we will utter, the words that we meant; let is be the eternity chant which make us belong to and only to each other.

Tuesday, 25 September 2012

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Dandelion

Dandelion

For some people, seeing a beautiful round white dandelion shooting up from the ground, they would immediately pluck it and gently blow it as the little stalks starts to fly away following where the wind would scatter it.

For some people, seeing an ugly weed populating their garden cause them to terminate all of them as they perceive those dandelions as something useless and meaningless. They will try with all their might to wipe it out due to the meaning of beauty are totally different.

Life is just like a dandelion. People would appreciate you and some people would try to make you drown. We cannot make all of them happy about us; perhaps because of jealousy or their own nature to do no like you.

But for the people whom appreciate you as you are, feel bless as those people who are real catalyst that make you as what you are right now; even though they are from your past, present or future; be bless.

Wednesday, 19 September 2012

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There Is This Girl…

There was this girl

There is this girl who is waiting for the right one. She does not do any searching as she lives in the world of fairytales that her prince charming would meet her underneath the crepuscular rays. None she knows things would not be fall right into her arms as she is blinded and captivated by the happily ever after. Hardship does not even come to her mine thou Snow White have to suffer before meeting the one.

There is this girl who found the person whom completes her. Despite the aurora shining above them, she is struggling to keep the aurora from not going away. Her fear of a storm that would put off the beautiful light made her putting a shed over it but it is too big to cover. Restless yet determine as she try to shoe off potential stealers but deep inside her heart, her uttermost fear; the aurora would break up and leave her alone underneath the dark rainy cloud drench in soulless pieces.

There is this girl who is hoping the one that walk away returning to her yet death cannot be undone. She thrives for strengths, fight for happiness and endure the pain; just to release herself from a broken shattered heart. She believe in chances, thus hurting herself every time when they get back together. Never she knew the only way out is to let go whom she think is the one.

Wednesday, 5 September 2012

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Untold Silence

Sealed Lips

Some people enjoy the quietness when they sleep underneath a tree, when they read a book or just sit with their couple; doing nothing, say nothing. Just sitting there side by side knowing the existence of completeness. However, those are good silence which every person seeks for its serene.

Silence that could hurtful is when the person that you love, whom you care and protect chose to ignore you alongside with your existence. Perhaps it was caused by a mistake or things that you did which hurt them deep. Days and months have passed but no words, no mumble, no laughter; even a slighter smile; cease to see.

We sometimes tried our best to engage with them but they keep on pushing us and giving a response to do not allow us in their gravity. It is sad and the worst part is that you miss the person. They never told you the reason why the did it nor giving us a hint about what has happened. For them, there is no us. It is just you and me.

Once inseparable are now apart.

Monday, 25 June 2012

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So Far Gone

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Tell me the walls are talking or the door is looking

tell me the sky is playing the symphony or the earth is singing

tell me whether the water is scary and causing the fire to be horrified

tell me that the air is poisonous and causing the dark and grey to be terrified.


Answer me when darken exist in the light

answer me when the snow melts in the bright

answer me when the river flows upwards

answer me when the time goes backwards.


Question me when all children becomes Benjamin Button

question me when all kings gone by the spring

question me at the doze slumber of a nightingale

question me when all word going to end.

Tuesday, 19 June 2012

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To Rome With Love

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In late night, as I flipping through postcards that were sent by my friends over last summer; seeing their enjoyment travelling around the world; something inside spoke to me and said, “Lets go! Let us have an adventure of our own. Come on! While you are still in the silence of journey, lets us just wild through and go along with the flow. We have nothing to loose!’.

As quick and swift as fox, I threw the postcards to the table, ran to the bedroom, grabbed the backpack that are use for class and put my plain t-shirts, hot pants and innerwear in which the number of clothes that I packed does not resemble Marco Polo at all.

Since it is impromptu, I want to keep the plan to myself and due to that, I can’t call my friends to send me to the airport. Thus, a cab arrived ten minutes later and the sleepy driver drove to the airport in the middle of the night. After paid the fair and tip him with a Starbucks voucher; so he could get a hot roasted coffee since it is my fault on the first place called him on the first place; I went straight to the selling counter to find out only five counters still open and having Qantas Airways, British Airways, Air France, Emirates and Virgin Atlantic does not sound cheap.

Before I knew it, a copy of receipt together with my card is being handed to me while the sales person told me the earliest flight to Rome will commence within 40 minutes. As I pace to the boarding gate, my mind recall what had happened five minutes before. The vivid flashback starts to roll its film focusing upon me who stood in front of those counters. Suddenly, it occurred to me to grab the earliest flight list on the information board. I made a look and “Rome” captured my sight. Hence, I directly went to the Air France counter and asked whether a seat is still available on the craft.

“You’re lucky” says the sales person. “Yesterday,  we received a call from one of our passenger mentioning that he want to reschedule his flight to the next after and the former seat is still fully covered because he said that perhaps having two seats for two different days is feasible. He added that he would call if to tell us which flight he will take and just now, he called stating that he would took the second ticket that he purchased. So yes, we do have an available seat and it’s fully paid. Perhaps you want to add on for a meal for the flight since it will consume roughly around 3 hours to reach Rome, Italy.” and for reason for the credit card was swiping through the payment machine, I smiled.

After I landed at Leonardo da Vinci Airport, I got into a taxi and told the driver to send this precious carriage to a little in called Cialdini. I quite surprised myself as I only knew about the inn from a travel column that I read from Cosmopolitan magazine few months back. Just as I stepped in, I was welcome by Paolo, the owner of the inn; an old guy which I assume in his early 50s, having white butcher beard and he wearing a plain white t-shirt with brown pants together with a pair of red suspenders. He coincidently taking care of the counter when I arrived and welcome me in his thick Italian accent while his hands dance in the air when he talks.. Later, he gives me a key and personally carried my backpack as he shows the way to my room. While he took off his flat golf cap and fan himself; perhaps from the two floor journey; he opened the door.

It is a beautiful room indeed as the ray of the morning sun penetrate the T-shape windows all the way to the bed with there is a light brown writing table at the right side of the bed facing the wall. The room was simple but beautiful. I thanked Paolo and threw myself on the comfy bed and my stomach starting to growl begging for food. I remembered that I haven’t dress any meal since last night.

So I went out using the back door and my eyes instantly captivated upon what its behold. The alley is just about 20 foot width but both side of the alley are filled with stalls that sells fruits, clothes, kitchen utensils and many other things which I don’t usually see in my hometown. Buyers negotiating with the mongers, one child running with an apple in his hand, two old man sits on stools; talking, chattering. It is an amazing sight.

I strode along the alley and I noticed a small restaurant called Ragazzi Picolli which attract me to step in. I was welcome by Ella Fitzgerald song that fills throughout the room and I sit at one little table right at the corner when a girl I assume in her 16 give a menu in later which afterwards, standing still, waiting for me to give my order.

Since the menu are written in Italian, my mind starts to juggle itself and my lips uttered,  “Un spaghetti ala tomato pasta et parlez”. I think what I said to her was right because she just jolt it down and gave the paper to the kitchen counter. Fifteen minutes later, a plate of spaghetti with four large meatball on top and a glass of cold water are serve. I enjoyed the meal really much partly because it is purely Italian made.

After finished the meal, I continue my journey along the pavement alley as I smiled to every person that passed me by while whispering to myself, “Perhaps, Paris is known for love and Milan touched the base for passion. But, both love and passion does not beat the sincerity of two hearts; as written by Shakespeare; the story of Romeo and Juliet.”.

Let me share my love here before I return and see the wonder of Rome from the eye of Eve. By instinct, I can feel this journey would be magical.

To feel the love of Rome.

Sunday, 3 June 2012

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Remember the excitement when you are starting a new journey; being in a new relationship, going to new places or exploring the world?

The intense of the vibe, energy and passion cluttered within until anything that you touch would be magical together with expectation of things that you might stumble on; you just do not know. Thus, your heart pound faster, mind are lingering on the line of sparkle rainbow and throughout the journey that you went on restlessly; it's all getting dimmer and dimmer.

Suddenly, the energy drawer itself slowly just at the moment when you are almost reach the end of the journey in the dark woods. All the experience gained; left by the person whom we care and love, stumbled to the ground and non-mended shattered hearts; making us stronger.

Upon many chances, challenges has made you to give up upon this journey; until the chime plays at the last heave of breath trying to stop you by saying it is enough.

Hope would not make you give up as it is the main reason why you were on the path; to seek, to know and to gain endless journey. Hence, there is no halt, period nor full stop. Strength will rise throughout your blood and giving you the ultimate ability.

To keep the pace, steps and track with no end limit.

Friday, 1 June 2012

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There is nothing more that you need in this world apart from having that someone who would be by your side no matter even though they have being hurt by you dearly.

Perhaps they would want you to leave them for a short period of time while mending their heart but when the time comes, they would be the first person who would be there; holding your hand tight in their grasp, a hug that would never be let go and whisper, “It’s alright; everything would be fine. I’m here for you….”.

Upon that one moment, your heart starts to fall its tears because your eyes refuse to cry, your soul sobs because your physical being trying to look strong and your mind tirelessly finding the exact words to express your gratitude because they choose to be with you on that precise moment rather to be somewhere or to be with someone else.

The one to be with.

Friday, 9 March 2012

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Dear Future Daughter

Future Daughter

My dear future daughter,

Every time I think of you; that one day I will hold you in my arm; made me smile when I’m going through a rough time and all those burden just shed off to the ground.

You will be a beautiful girl for me; until it made the earth stop moving just because it want to have a glimpse of the face that would shine my world. I’ll take care of you well and nurturing you with all best things that world got to offer.

I would send you to the best school where you can meet your new future friends; which perhaps some of grow up together with you and stay by your side when I am not there for you. Later, when you’re 4 years old, a ballet class I should prepare for you so you could be flexible in the early age so it would be easy for you to take any sports or dance class that you want to be into when you’re 10 years old.

Not to forget a piano lesson so you could develop the artistic value within self so towards the end, you would be a smart, beautiful, amazing, captivating and talent girl people would know.

Thus, the would ask around, “Who’s daughter is she?”

In latter, I would happily answer, “Mine”.

Wednesday, 7 March 2012

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To Love Somebody

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Who says that it is easy to love someone? Who says that it is easy to going through relationship? Who says that it is easy to forget about the person you love? Who says that it is easy to move on? Who says that it is impossible to create a bond?

Loving someone isn’t just about expecting something in return from them; perhaps you might say it is about give and take; but upon self perspective, the main reason why you love someone is because you’re giving half of your heart, your soul and your entire of your hope to share it with someone who is special to you; in a way it could turn you insane in a heartbeat whenever something in the bond goes wrong.

To achieve that level of expectation; doesn’t care what that person has done to you, deep down you’re hurting but you can’t let them go as you accept their flaws more than their good quality.

And that is about truly loving a person; because the assure you that they would never let you go despite bad things that they would do behind your back; there must be a reason, although it is yet non-acceptable; you are the person of their choice; their future, your future, together.

Monday, 5 March 2012

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Beautiful Serendipity

Serendipity

Accidentally bump into someone who you could never knew will change your life entirely is everyone’s dream but perhaps it’s only occur to bunch of them and within those bunch, most of them only experience it once.

Serendipity could be more sweet and memorable when it leads to something beautiful; a bond that are tied by promises, kisses and hugs; that neither both of them would even think twice to do so. Sometimes, it is better left things unknown and follow the flow rather planning the path and the journey that you would let your life to go it thorough.

Alas, when you walking through the flashback and pause your step, by looking at the side you knew it was not a set up by nature but an intentional melody made for beautify your life.

Saturday, 3 March 2012

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Intertwine

Intertwine

Fate has never gone wrong on us; in a matter of preparing things that we will face hardly, harshly and heavily.

Don’t blame upon fate towards things that happened to us as earlier on we were being presented by numerous of options before we choose the path of adventure which we never going to know its ending.

Most of us would tell our love ones meeting them is a fate but what if it never meant to be happen on the first place? What if fate was being ready to present you with something as in between someone or something crosses by and totally change the whole situation 180 degrees?

And that “in between” becoming a part of your life that you could never live with; and they would die without your existence on the first place; as options would be invalid. Thus, fate starting to messing you around so you could diverted from the choice that you made to their choice of made.

Don’t ever look back, fight and struggle because if that someone or something is important to you, you would eventually fight it with your life.

Thursday, 1 March 2012

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New Start

New Start

There will be a point where you need to leave your comfort zone because you just want to leave everything behind; perhaps for a reason; as it is for a good cause.

You may need to leave your love ones, places you like, food you love and people whom you’re so kin with; as bringing them along in one small corner of memories would make you feel reluctant to go away.

Perhaps you might say there might not be a good decision but certain things remain to be unknown until you actually try to force yourself stepping in the circle of change by trying to adapt with the new surrounding.

A bless in disguise as most people would say it when you finally figure out all the meaning behind it; in which it does takes time but time is one of the things that we need to risk and to be put upon sacrifice.

Just believe those things that you will do is right and trust me; everything will be fine.

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